I'm writing this from an emotional state of mind. I'm drinking fake wine (sober 3 months)! and listening to depressing music. Oh and it's 2am and  I'm incredibly over tired. Writing is so therapeutic.. I don't know how many shrinks Ive had to tell me this.. and each time I roll my eyes. Never have I been one to journal my deepest darkest thoughts (Let's be serious, Id be institutionalized with all that crazy shit) and even from looking at this blog.. I have serious commitment issues. But right now after having a sobbing fest over my life taking another huge turn.. Hello writing.. my long lost lover.

I told him tonight. Told him I'd be leaving. It didn't go over well. My heart is breaking, but I know I cant go on living here.. like this. I can't be the best I can be if I'm feeling completely out of it and to be honest, miserable. I've faked that everything has been peachy for the last 2 years, and I just cant seem to get over things that have happened to me in my past. Sob fest sob fest blah blah blah... Things changed when I met him; he made believe "Hey! there are good people left in the world" and from the deepest depths of myself I can thank him for that. Thank him for the laughs, the tears and all the love he gave me. But ultimately you cant rely on someone else for your happiness. I need to focus on getting myself in better place, mentally, physically.. emotionally.

I'm a hopeless romantic and I hope that if we are meant to be, it will be... what's a couple provinces? Or.. 5..

So fuck me.. and fuck everyone. I'm a fucking mess. But most of all.. to him.. Thank you for loving me as much as you did.

Leighton xox

A lil posty post

I've been on a hiatus.. from what? Well I'm not sure exactly, but obviously I haven't been posting; and yes my mother as far as I know, is the only one who reads my nonsense, and I even have to remind her to do so.. what shame! But the optimist in me thinks at least ONE person who has never met me stumbles upon this great and magical place..Leighton's Domain. And well, I owe it to them to write a lil somethin' somethin'. So my dear anonymous friend, this is for you buddy.

I have no clue what direction this blog is taking. Yes, I love beauty, but you know what? I also love a lot of other stuff, and this chick has a big mouth with lots of opinions. So I'm just gonna wing it. I've been sick with a chest infection for a good month, and I'm on, yet another round of good old antibiotics. God my body hates me (Positive thoughts.. positive thoughts..)

My puppy Bridgette has also been a miserable little girl. She turned the big "7 months" on the 1st of this month.. and yep! She went into heat. Stupid me for not getting her spayed last month, but you know what? That shit is expensive, and its been an expensive month for this girl. Flying back to my hometown (Which is on the other side of Canada, didn't run cheap!) But alas my baby will get her insides cut out next month.. I cant deal with puppy PMS and to be honest, its just not fair to my little girl! She does an "army crawl" under the couch, and then just lays there with her little head out, and CRIES. It's a terrible, heart wrenching sound, and I refuse to let her go through this again.

School has been stressful.. in fact, I don't even want to talk about it. Ive been missing my family like crazy especially my sister. Yes, she is 5 years younger than me, but dang, girl has insight and wisdom beyond her years. She is the only one who I let talk to me in such an abusive manner ("Leighton, what the FUCK is wrong with you?") It's still a little shocking to hear my baby sister speak with such foul language, but honestly, I appreciate it. I will be going home for Christmas and she has this magical idea to get matching sister tattoos... Call me old fashioned but, getting inked is not something I've ever wanted to do. (Okay, okay; at one point when I was young and quite simple minded I thought it was my destiny to rock the tramp stamp.. but times have changed) I told her MAYBE.. and that's a big fat maybe. It would have to be small.. in a place no one could see and have to be amazing. No I don't want a fucking butterfly, or a bloody heart.

Anyways, this has truly been an awful entry, and I do apologize if you've stuck with me this long and read it. On another note.. vegan pudding is amazing, I suggest everyone try it.

Leighton xo

A busy bee I is :)

FUDGE... I really am crap at this whole blogging shyytt 0.0


oppsie doodle.. Maybe once Im inspired I'll giver a go?


Thumbs up for proper english -.-

Review on Chanel Precision Lotion Confort

                                                                                   

A silky soothing toner with "comfort" + "anti-pollution" with no alcohol. Sounds too good to be true doesn't it? Well it just might be.. Now I have been a skincare junkie since being in the Beauty Industry (althought thats not my profession anymore.. hello being a student again!) and I have come into contact with many skincare brands.. some good.. and well, some that aren't. Darphin, a trusty staple in my medicine cabnit has yet to dissapoint me.. Aveda.. well, I'm definitely not a fan. So how did this Chanel toner hold up to my high expectations?

I know smell can be a big deal for most people, the scent is quite clean and somewhat refreshing.. nothing pungent and overwhelming. The feel on my skin is quite nice.. the fact that it's alcohol-free is a huge thing for me (alcohol in skincare is not my friend) I dont feel like it's the most moisturizing toner I've come across, but my skin doesn't feel tight and feels comfortable for the most part. I also like the anti-pollution aspect, I live in a big city thats overcrowded and overly polluted; now I can't say I can tell a difference with the "anti-pollution." As long-term pollution causes skin to age, and at my age I have little-to no signs of any aging. Therefore I like to think of the anti-pollution as a preventitive measure.

I believe this toner could work with various skin- types, normal to combination, dry and sensitive (side note: The sensitive toner in the Chanel line contains alcohol which I found odd. I think sensitive skin would benefit from the Lotion Confort more- just my opinion) People with lots of excess oil might need to find a different toner, as well as people on a tight budget for skincare (Chanel = $$$)

Overall it's a decent toner, I can't say I've seen a huge change in my skin since using it (about 2 months) but I do like it, especially the "anti-pollution" claim. I'm undecided if I would repurchase, as Im not sure it's worthy of it's hefty price tag. Again, it's nothing particularly special, but if you're in line for a high-end toner then this might do the trick.

Leighton's rating: B

New Year Resolutions and Wisdom Cards

      
I will be the first to admit I am terrible at keeping my resolutions. Im good for about 2 weeks to a month and then slowly but surely, I go back to my old terrible ways (lol). I kick myself everytime.. why does my will power lag so..? But this year I am determined to follow through, Ive been through a great deal the past year and keeping my resolutions should be mildly easy..right?


Like most women, a new year means a whole "brand new you!" thus most resolutions have to do with loosing weight. I to, am guilty of saying this year after year, but this time, I want it to be different. My goal is to have a healthy lifestyle; meaning physically, emotionally, and mentally. Gone are the days of crazy diets and of obsessive exercise, or no exercise at all. Its not about quick fixes anymore, I understand its about lifestyle. Meaning.. FOREVER!


My plan is to surround myself with positive people, and limit my negative thinking.. HELLO POSITIVE THOUGHTS! I'm also going to start my journey on being the best possible me. Totally cheesey right? But how often a day do you call yourself down? Its probably more than you think, and that alone can wreak havoc on your selfesteem, and who wants to go through life doing that?


I've met older women who battle with selfesteem issues, and its truely sad. I always think to myself.. well that wont be me, becasue there is no way Im going to be that "old" and be that unhappy with myself!.. But guess what? You dont just wake up one day and completely love yourself. So how is that not going to be me? Or many other women who think the same way? That journey starts now, you have control of your thoughts. You are the one who chooses who you want to be. If you want to be that lively confident girl, then you can be. But beware it takes work, and lot of it (Im still in the beginning stages) in order to not be that elderly women who broke my heart, you have to put in the work now.


Ive already starting taking babysteps (afterall its only January 2nd) including a long walk to ocean, making dinner myself (veggie stir fry-yum!) and reading my wisdom cards...So what are Wisdom Cards you ask? Well they are just that.. CARDS FULL OF WISDOMOSITY!! (haha, oh Im just so funny) But seriously, they are cards that come in a little flip-box, 64 to be exact, and they have wonderful affirmations on them. I've made it a little ritual before bed that I shuffle the cards and spread them out. Whatever one catches my eye, I pick it up, and read it (obviously). I read it a couple of times and put it on the top of the box. In the morning I pick it up again and read it, thus in my mind, starting my day out with some postitive thoughts.

(These are the exact cards I have)

Anyways to summairze my New Year resolutions they are: To have a happy healthy lifestyle and to be the best possible me. To stop procrastinating, whether its homework or bigger things (ie; MY LIFE!)and last but not least, stop worrying about things I have no control of, as its absolutely pointless! It really is mind over matter, and you can achieve anything you want to. I just have to keep repeating that to myself,so it gets stuck in there really good ;) To anyone who reads this and identifies with me, know that you can do it to. Dont say you'll do it next week, or start next month.. Start now, you have your whole life waiting for you.

To end my super cheesey essay filled with way too many cliche things (you cant deny they arent true!) I will leave you with a wisdom card I pulled this previous night: "It is only a thought and a thought can be changed: The thoughts I choose to think and believe right now are creating my future. These thoughts form my experiences tomorrow, next week and next year."

Until next time...

Leighton xox

The LOVE list

Just a few things that im head over heels with! <3

1) Boticario de Havana Hand Cream by Archipelago Botanicals. A truely luxurious hand cream; it takes good care of those pesky hangnails and cracked itchy skin, that the drier weather imposses upon us. Not only is this the BEST hand cream Ive tried- to date, the scent is something so heavenly. Hard to describe, I would say its citrusy, yet with some sort of pine smell? (Okay so I'm not the best at describing scents)  Definitely not sweet, but truely invirgorating and absolutely lovely.

2) La Perla J'aime Perfume. My god I cannot get enough of this scent!! As soon as I put this on my mind decsribes it as sophistocated, feminine and sexy. It's described as: "Floral chypre, with fruity and sweet notes of litchi, raspberry and caramel...Bergamot, pepper and litchi open the composition. Intense Egyptian jasmine in the heart, acompanied by lotus and raspberry. As it develops, the fragrance becomes sweeter and darker, as musk, caramel, amber and patchouli come to the scene." I've never found anything like this, LOVE IT!

3) Play it Proper Beauty powder from MAC. A stunning light pink with a slight sheen that compliments my crazy pale NW15 skin tone. At first I wasn't excited for anything about the MAC Stylishly Yours, but after seeing this baby in person it was LOVE. (Image courtesy of Temptalia.com)

4) Pink Prism Diamanté Watch by Guess. Thanks to 30% at Guess stores the week after Christmas, this lovely jewel is now MINE! I've never beem a huge watch person but this.. well it's amazing. Sadly there is no Hello Kitty on the face, but a girl can't have everything now, can she?

5) Laurita Mini Clutch by Guess. Keeping with the Guess theme,  I picked this up at 50% off, a great deal! So I know what you're thinking.. wow is that ever tacky looking! But I seriously love it. I got this to use as a makeup bag to keep in my school bag. I think it makes the CUTEST makeup bag.. now as a night out clutch? Hm.. not so much!

6) Rouge Allure Extrait De Gloss in Imaginaire from Chanel. Such a lovely lipgloss,a soft pink that's very smoothe and creamy feeling, I hate glosses that are overly sticky (Im talking to you MAC LIPGLASS!) this is the perfect in between, not too sticky, and not too liquid that it dissapears within 30 mins of application.

Goodbye 2010 (You wont be missed)

  

So here we are again, another New Years Eve. And what am I doing? Well Im sitting here talking to my dear mother on the phone and writing my first blog. No, Im not getting all glamorous, the hair is tied back and my outfit is far from the usual haute couture I adorn on this festive occasion. 

It's funny to think last year I was running around like a chicken with it's head cut off (looking absolutely fabulous BTW) cooking hors d'oeuvres and tending to mine and my boyfriend's (at the time) guests. I have to say, for my first time hosting a "party" I did a pretty good job. You kow, until... I found the vino. But needless to say, it was overall a good time. As I peeled my fake eyelashes off my face the next morning, and finally calmed the elephant stomping around in my head; I thought I had accomplished a pretty decent get together, I mean it didnt matter no one would remember it, we had pictures for that.

Fast forward to present New Years Eve, and I cant help but feel a little sad being all alone on this particular night. I guess thats what i get for up and leaving everything I've ever known. Goodbye loser boyfriend, goodbye my wonderful family, goodbye my (sometimes) good friends. But alas, what doesnt kill you stronger.

As I reflect over the past year I have had severe ups and downs. Moving 15 hours away on a whim turned out to benefit me. I started college, and learned how too cook (well kinda..) I left my boyfriend of almost 3.5 years (thinking back I wish I left him sooner!) I've started to come into my own, beginning my path to my career. Just that in it's self is incredibly exciting.




So as 2011 dawns upon us, I wish and hope for success, health and peace. For myself, my family and whoever reads this.




To everyone: HAPPY NEW YEAR!




Until next time..




Leighton xox